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Decision conflict
Sexuality and body perception impairment
Negligence
Contempt
Disgust
Strangeness
Mental health impairment
Anxiety
Agitation
Irritability
Body dysphoria
Suicide
Psychiatric care
CAPS
Lack of welcoming
Disrespect for trans identity
Sadness
Revolt
treatment abandonment
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[...] the most difficult were not the moments of conflict of decision with my gender identity, but the transphobia that I started to experience, affecting not only my sexuality, my perception of my body, my image and personality, but my existence. It has been almost a daily battle to survive in the face of transphobia that demonizes, exoticizes, neglects, harasses and denies the trans experience. They are games in bad taste, looks of contempt, disgust, strangeness, lack of acceptance and sensitivity that even happens in health services. These experiences generate real compromises in my mental health. I feel constantly anxious, agitated, irritable, with high stress, change in mood, appetite, in addition to the body dysphoria I’ve already experienced. I even tried to commit suicide, with the desire to end my life, due to a severe depression that I experienced. Due to the serious mental health situation I was in, I sought psychiatric care at a CAPS, but even in that space I already suffered transphobia and did not receive the care I needed. Several times, I was called by my registered name, delegitimizing my male identity. That situation humiliated me, made me sad and angry, and became the reason why I abandoned, missed subsequent appointments, abandoned treatment and became resistant to seeking a health service. (DCS) |