Table 2.

Motivations for drug use

	Common descriptors of motivations for seroconverted narratives	Common descriptors of motivations for seronegative narratives
Physical domain
Physical sensation (nonsexual)	“focus,” “lose weight,” “party more,” “energy”	“physical stamina,”“keeps you awake for days,” “rush,” “stay awake,” “energy”
Sexual sensation (sexual)	“extremely horny,” “prolongs ejaculation,” “longer sex,” “more aggressive during sex,” “intense [sex]”	“sexual,” “cold sex,”“intense [sex]”
Facilitation of sex	“less inhibited,” “group sex,” “nasty sex,” “makes me feel a little more freakier,” “more free”	“less inhibited,”“initiating sex more,”“more courage”
Emotional/mental domain
Emotional enhancement	“insight,” “feel in control,” “makes me feel alive and beautiful,” “I love everyone on crystal,”“self-improvement”	“affectionate,”“considerate,” “in tune,” “care,” “open and smart,” “happiness,” “discover things about myself,” “I’m in heaven,” “peaceful,” “creative”
Emotional equivalence	“I’ll feel what they’re feeling,” “I’m not, you know, apart from the party,” “I wanted to feel in,” “peer pressure,” “makes me feel accepted with them,” “wonderful connections with people,” “I did it to basically be around him”	“I like being on the same wave length,” “It makes me more together with my people”
Emotional escape	“I hate my life,” “feel more comfortable around a lot of gay men at one time,” “feel less guilty about what I’m doing,” “they look at you with hatred,” “coping mechanism,” “get away from reality,” “the anger that I had built inside of me,” “puts me in another world,” “everything just goes away”	“relaxing,” “relief,” “anti-depressant,”“escapism,”“melancholy,” “like I’m normal”
Social domain  Social interaction	“makes me outgoing and very talkative,” “makes me feel accepted”	“makes me cool with the people I’m with,” “I will focus on guys,” “I will notice cute guys on the dance floor,” “it’s a fake confidence”
Overcoming social inhibitions	“security,” “I’m kind of bashful,” “people will come over to you,” “makes us more secure,” “more bold, more brave,” “less afraid,” “I would have waited for him to make the first move”	“relaxes your inhibitions”