Table I.

Examples of Hostile-Helpless codes.

A.	Global Devaluation of Caregiver
	“I even feel contempt. I don't hate them any more, I used to hate them, I used to daydream what I'd do to them, how I'd kill them, but she is not worth it.”
	“Tyrannical. He was horrible to us.”
B.	Identification with a Hostile Caregiver1
	“. . . and I used to shout at them in the same way that people I felt threatened by used to tell me off like school teachers and things, and my mother. I use the same tone and say the same sort of things.”
	“. . . it's very seldom that I get angry, which is the same as my father, but when I do get angry, I fly off the handle, I just go totally AWOL type uurrgh, which again is exactly the same as my father, because my father never expresses his anger to start with, he never says ‘you're making me cross’ he lets it go and go and go and go until you've made him so furious that he has, he loses control and that's exactly the same as I've got now . . .”
C.	Sense of Special Unworthiness
	“. . . it was my fault that she was sick and so, when she got sick and got old I felt it was my fault, you know, it was all my fault that she was just getting old, you know.”
	“. . . it always made me feel like a bit of an outsider, the troublemaker of the family.”
D.	Repeated References to Fearful Affect
	“. . . so there was a feeling around all the time that something dreadful was going to happen at any minute.”
	“. . . I, kind of, am terrified of what is round the next corner really . . .”
E.	Laughter at Pain
	“. . . then I was 9 when I took my first overdose [you were nine when you took an overdose?]” (laughs)
	“. . . you know, I could have put in a cardboard substitute for myself and nobody would really have noticed.” (laughs)
F.	References to Controlling - Punitive Behavior towards Caregiver in Childhood
	“I used to say some hateful things to her ... and taunt her ... (what would you say?) That she deserved what he was doing to her . . .”
	“I would push them to a certain point ... they'd start to break ... because I was very, like, insolent and cheeky and demanding.”
G.	References to Controlling-Caregiving Behavior towards Caregiver in Childhood
	“. . . I think the only way I could experience closeness was to take care of her. Get her tea when she came in from doing this work and go out with her and help her . . .”
	“. . . I was aware that I was, kind of, responsible for her and I used to . . . if I was at school I used to be worrying was she alright.”
H.	Ruptured Attachment with Family Member
	“I went through quite a long period um . . . a few years, about four years, five years ago having no contact whatsoever with my parents . . .”
	“I mean, I don t speak to him now. I don't want to have anything to do with him at all.”

¹identification with a hostile caregiver is usually coded not for a single passage but for the combination of global devaluation and evidence of identification over the entire interview.