Table III.

Bi-directional violence

Quote #	Speaker	Narrative
7	24-year-old Native American. Meth at age 18	[No one’s ever gotten like violent with you or anything like that?] My kid’s dad had got real disgusting, you know? We would get high and like jealousy—I mean like there—we would be getting high with another girl and I re-, we already passed that point to where we were all together [sexually]— me, him and, and this girl that he cheated on me with, but it could be any girl. And we would be getting high and my insecurity would kick in, like you know, ‘You passed the pipe that way—a certain way to her—why?’ Just like stuff like—I laugh about now. It got real physical. He’s, he’s done a lot, a lotta horrible things to me. He’s dropped me and the baby off, like in the middle of nowhere—just like, ‘Here, you guys gotta get out now—go home,’ you know? And he decided he wanted to go party—when he has his mind set, ‘I’m gonna go be with somebody, I’m gonna go party.’ Me and my daughter had—no matter if he would take care of us, but at that specific moment— ‘Okay, you guys, you know, go home.’ Or he would drop us off at home, or he would come home and like I would push his button, it’s like, by arguing with him, ‘cause he didn’t wanna give me, he didn’t wanna get me high, so it ended up turning physical. It’s just—it was, it was really bad.
8	32-year-old White. Meth, alcohol, MJ, ecstasy, LSD at age 11	[Was it ever, did anyone get violent toward you?] No, I mean, I knew my boyfriend did due to dope, yeah. Having no more, me having it, I mean, not giving them what they want, not giving him money for more. It’s—yeah, they put hands on me, and I’ve also put hands on them. But, it had, I’ve had violence all my life.
9	28-year-old Latina. Meth at age 18	We were so much into it [getting high] that I really didn’t care if I got my ass kicked or not, you know—we always made up and we always, you know, made up with meth and sex, so it was all good for me at that time. You know? It didn’t matter how bad he beat me, but afterwards, the reward was meth and sex. Yeah, so I—sometimes I would, you know, even, you know, push that button, you know, to go, yeah.
10	28-year-old Latina (same as above)	[So when he was, when he was violent toward you … did you fight back? Or …?] At, at first, I didn’t fight back. But then afterwards, I started fighting back, but it would—it got worse. [Do you feel like he was violent because of the meth? Or was that just how he was?] Yeah, every time he would get violent was either because we were both coming down, or there was no money to get it, or we didn’t have any, or stuff like that, so … [So you were stressed out, basically?] Yeah. [Yeah. And what was like the worst thing you feel he did to you?] Broken ribs, bruises all over my arm, my back—scratches and stuff.