Table 2.

Summery of themes and of sub- themes

Major theme	Sub-themes	Common meanings
	1) Descent: wondering between what is and what will be	- Having sorrowful tale - Unanswered question - Escaping from reality - Losing hope
Spiritual journey	2) Connecting to deity: reflection on the failure in her struggle	- Gratefulness - Surrendering to God - Having the divine test
	3) Ascent: helping her child is becoming all of the mother’s life	- To rescue - Being hopeful -Listening to her inner voice