TABLE 4.
Framea | Exemplar quote |
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Emancipatoryb | I’m healthy, I’m able to work, I am going back to school shortly, ready to graduate from college. It [HIV] is not a setback or a downfall to me. It is just something I got dealt. …I basically just don’t even try to put my race being a issue. Being a woman is not an issue. What other people will say is not an issue… |
Maternalc | But, as I explained earlier, he [her son] is the one that I was pregnant with when I was diagnosed the first time and he’s the reason I live. And he’s the reason I’m undetectable now. [i.e. her HIV viral load is undetectable]. But I feel I need to be around as long as I can so she can at least know me. So I can show her and teach her what I do know, you know, and we can learn some things together, you know. |
Internalizedd | I keep a lot in. Sometimes you talk to your family, they don’t understand. I rather go out and talk to [healthcare worker], my mental health doctor, my case manager. I call them ‘cause when I talk with my family they always give me negative feedback, but I’ll ask them to just listen. I don’t want no feedback, ‘Just listen so I can get this out.’ I just have a taboo, about going to clinics and stuff…and confidentiality that’s a big thing for me. And the way people still treat. Because if you’re listening to people and they talk not knowing who is and who isn’t [living with HIV]. It’s just like, ‘you’re rude, you don’t even know…you don’t even know anything…” |
Health | |
Positive | In response to whether she considers herself healthy based the definition of health she has given] Yes. ‘Cause I’m doing what I’m suppose to do, like I should do. |
Negative | [In response to whether she considers herself healthy based the definition of health she has given] No, I can’t do the normal things I want to do…So, I’m not normal and it stresses me out. And it stresses me out that I see people do normal things and I can’t do. It just stresses me out. |
Based on primary moral or normative concern.
Transcending oppressive discourses.
Maintaining positive maternal identity and maternal-child relations.
Normality in one’s social context [which notably emphasizes the dominant values of white, middle class mothers not living with HIV].