Table 3.
Topics of the electronic diary.
| Main category | Code | Expressiona | |
| Mental disorder | |||
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Symptoms | Self-harm | I took some scissors and cut long wounds in my legs. (IDb 431) |
| Suicidal thoughts | I now have fewer thoughts of suicide. I still think about it, but not all the time. (ID 439) | ||
| Tiredness | When I am tired and start thinking about problems, I feel bad. (ID 5) | ||
| Loneliness | I feel lonely when I am with my friends, like I'm in a bubble. (ID 116) | ||
| Distress | I can’t find time to relax, or if I have a free moment, I get stressed because I know that there is still school work or something else to be done. This depression never ends. (ID 299) | ||
| Treatment | Outpatient care | After the conversation /with the nurse/ my thoughts went from a blob to well-structured body. (ID 79) | |
| Medication | Compared to the previous weeks I feel better. Probably because the doctor increased my night drugs. (ID 357) | ||
| Self-help | I can write more. This is very relieving. Surprisingly so. I can deal with my thoughts. (ID 290) | ||
| Music always makes me feel both good and bad feelings. (ID 508) | |||
| I've been thinking a lot and have tried many ways to get rid of this bad feeling, but I haven’t really found help. (ID 299) | |||
| Recovery | Hope | Five years from now, I hope I will be a healthy young woman. (ID 475) | |
| Despondency | I feel like I’m not getting better and therefore I can’t imagine my future. (ID 438) | ||
| Relationship | |||
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Supportive | Resource of everyday life | Family, friends, and schoolmates can be a resource. (ID 8) |
| Reciprocity | Typically, I am the one who listens to others’ problems. Sometimes I’d like for my friends to listen to me, to how I feel. (ID 440) | ||
| I was active at school (I don’t usually speak during lessons, just with friends during breaks), and I even spoke with my classmates. (ID 26) | |||
| Nonsupportive | Bullying | I have experienced so many different things in my circle of friends, I’ve been insulted, discriminated against and, bullied in every possible way. (ID 499) | |
| I’m afraid to bring my own opinions into the classroom because everyone would laugh. (ID 475) | |||
| Conflicts | On Saturday morning was terrible, my dad complained to me about everything and I cried and told him that I did my best and my mum tried to calm him down. (ID 431) | ||
| When my mum is normal it is much easier to be at home. (ID 64) | |||
| Identity | |||
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Ego development | Temporal changes | For almost two years my self-esteem has been higher, because I learned not to think too much about others’ opinions. (ID 436) |
| Strengths | Before, around age 9-12, I had self-esteem problems, but I got over them quite well. (ID 100) | ||
| Weaknesses | I consider myself to be a weak person. Vulnerable, small, pathetic. (ID 449) | ||
| Capacities | I like my way of thinking; my positivity also shows. (ID 116) | ||
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Future expectations | Dreams | My plans and dreams cover just the next two years, and during that time I want to go to USA and get a dog and an apartment. And I want to be HAPPY. (ID 147) |
| Fears | I think that all my dreams have been crushed, and I don’t expect anything from the future. (ID 120) | ||
aTranslated from Finnish.
bID: Identifier.