SUD Prior to Pain |
“I mean I drank all my life…one way or another, off and on…but I’d say the last 15, 20 years it’s gotten progressively worse due to stress and depression… I just started drinking more and more. And with the pain… it was just another excuse. I felt like I had to drink to kill the pain.” |
Pain Recognized in Sobriety |
“When I first started using the meth and coke, I just started doing it because I liked it…And then I got clean in 1984…And I relapsed in ‘92. When I relapsed that’s right around the time…I got diagnosed with the back problems. During my sobriety is when I was really feeling that pain. I went through a divorce and I ended up relapsing… That’s when I realized that if I started getting high on meth, I wasn’t suffering the pain nearly as much.” |
Self-Medication of Physical and Emotional Pain |
Substance Used to Treat Pain |
“I mean my only thing I really knew to do, and I basically developed my own thing, is I just basically drink a lot of alcohol. Daily. I became a daily drinker…That’s how I managed pain, how I managed to get to sleep, and also other stuff. Just being a post-deployment person.” |
Opioid Medication for Pain Catalyzes Substance Use |
Brief Exposure to Opioids |
“…[it] was just like a one or two-time thing… but, I realized how it made me feel. And [in] the military I got pain medication a couple times when I was in Iraq. But not for long periods of time… I would always tell the doctors, I don’t want to get on this stuff but I’ll use it temporarily… And then after I came back from Iraq… that’s when I started self-medicating. And honestly, I used my back as an excuse… I personally don’t think that pain medication helped my back at all. But it helped me not care. And I liked pain medication.” |
Rapid Opioid Taper Reveals SUD |
… the guy was an idiot. But he gave me what I wanted [opioids] And it was easy for me to agree with him and justify it, “Oh he’s a doctor, he knows better than I do”…and then of course they [VA staff] were all happy to tell me… that he no longer works here. There was no, “well we’re gonna cut you down slowly.” So two days later I was buying heroin. |