Table 2.
Reasons for being unwilling to live longer and the number of quotations for each.
| Category (n) a | Examples of quotations |
|---|---|
| God (10) | I would like to die, but God gave me this punishment for living, and I have to accept it. |
| Annoyance (9) | Time passes so slowly, especially the nights; it seems that the day never comes again. |
| Uselessness (6) | (Because) a person wanting to work and not being able to […] is not worthy. |
| Loss of meaning (5) | I often ask myself “What am I still doing here?” |
| (Social) disconnection and loneliness (5) | I go to the street to have a coffee […] people always come, look at me but I don't know anyone. |
| Sense of burden (3) | I cannot do anything; I am here just to overwhelm [the others]. |
| Dependency (3) | Because I am getting older, with less strength, and I'm no longer able to drag myself. |
| (Fear of) suffering (3) | I wanted to die so I do not have to be here in suffering. I have a lot of pain. |
| Living outside my own home (3) | I am very scorned here. I didn't need to be here at the nursing home. |
| Loss of family members (1) | I wish I had already died when my little children died. |
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Frequencies were not mutually exclusive.