My name is Anna Cornelia Beyer. I have a PhD in Politics and am trained as a scientist. I also have schizophrenia since 2002.
I believe it is telepathy and spirit communication, not my own thoughts turning loud. And I have found out that real communication or even only sound (music or radio) helps against the voices. Loneliness and quietness bring them about.
About the Voices
I hear voices that no one else can hear. I hear them like I hear real voices, just not as loud. Without medication, they can become as loud as real voices. But no one seems affected by them. So, they seem to be only in my head. Even with medication I hear them.
I hear male and female voices, angry, sad, and nice and loving and proud voices.
Telepathy
For years, I thought these voices were telepathy. They feel like telepathy (clairaudience) would feel. I thought I can hear the thoughts of other people. I was fascinated by telepathy research; this is why I thought I hear the thoughts of other people. I thought I hear their anger when they are angry with me or their love when they like me or their sadness when I make them sad.
I finally got around testing this at my boyfriend. I rarely hear voices from him or think I hear his thoughts. But on occasion I do. I asked him several times if he just thought this or that. He always said no. Likewise, my mother always said she does not think what I hear from her. Hence, it is NOT telepathy. It is NOT the thoughts of others that I hear. It is not a subliminal connection to other living beings whose emotions or thoughts I perceive. This relieved a lot of anxiety for me. I feel free now realizing that.
Spirit Communication
However, what I believe is that these voices might be spirit communication. It might be spirits surrounding me who talk to me. John Burke in Imagine Heaven writes that spirits (entities in heaven) communicate via telepathy. Also, my angels that I talked to communicated with me via telepathy. It might be guardian spirits, positive, loving and negative, harmful, entities that talk to me because for some reason I am sort of clairaudient. Like, I might be a medium or something like that. These spirits are not necessarily to be believed or to follow all the time. They are just entities. Some are nice and loving, others want to cause trouble. It is advisable to not always do what the voices say. I believe this now to be the case. What also points in this direction is that I did a spirit release therapy when I was very ill with a lot of very negative voices (lots of them). Spirit release therapy is done by a practitioner (I used Terence Palmer for this purpose) who uses a medium to ask his spirit guide to remove attached spirits and negative foreign influences from me remotely. This was completed at me, 5 or 6 earthbound spirits were found and some other influences, and when they were removed, I was immediately free from the intense chatter around me and could function again. I have voices again, but not a chorus of them and only one or on occasion two and I can drown them out with medication and listening to music.
Not My Own Thoughts Turning Loud
The voices are probably NOT my own thoughts turning loud. Otherwise I could change them voluntarily or with meditation techniques, which I tried. It does not work. Also, I cannot predict when the voices occur, and I cannot predict what they will say or if they are male or female, pleasant or unpleasant. So, they are NOT my own thoughts. Also, my argument was always that I would not punish myself with shouting inside myself at me things like “This is Fascism.” I would not do that to myself. I have enough self-love to not do that.
Causes
The cause is trauma, and lack of communication and integration. My own psychoses always happen when I am alone or only on the internet and when there is trouble. When I am in contact with people and there is harmony, I am free from symptoms.
So, for example, when I was teaching and all was well, I was free from symptoms. When I listen to music or zoom or talk to my boyfriend, I am usually free from voices. But when I am alone in my room, I suffer, especially when there is or was some trouble. When I am all alone in my room all the time, I hear voices.
And when I lived alone and 9/11 happened, I had a psychotic episode. And when I was single, I was only well when I worked. When I came home in the evening and was sitting in front of my computer, I heard voices.
There are accounts of Jesus and Mohammad going into the desert all alone and starting to hear the voice of God. Loneliness is the requirement for this and lack of human communication. Integration, love, and communication are the answer.
Conclusion
This could mean that humans generally communicate via telepathy and with the spirit world. And if we are open enough, we hear that. But we don’t hear that if we communicate enough with real life and are busy with real communication, if we are integrated enough. But if we are all alone or only are engaged in online communication, we can start to have voices in our heads.